Jennifer Lopez struggles w/ split custody deal --
she misses her kids!http://www
It was a moment that would break any parent’s heart.
Add a public divorce and whirlwind work schedule to
the mix, and you have Jennifer Lopez crying on the
balcony of her Miami hotel while talking on the
phone to her 3-year-old daughter, Emme, on Jan. 29.
“I spoke to my daughter yesterday on the balcony
and I shed a tear,” the superstar, 42, told Today's
Matt Lauer. “I miss her so much.”
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Of course life hasn’t been easy for J.Lo since her
July split from husband-of-seven-years Marc Anthony.
“The past six months have been really intense,” an
insider tells OK! of J.Lo, who is coping with shared
custody of her 3-year-old twins, her American Idol
duties and her new talent search reality show
Q’Viva! — filmed with Marc.
“She’s been on the go non-stop,” says the insider.
“In a way that’s helped her deal with the emotions
initially, but now they are starting to come to
the surface. She can only run from her feelings
for so long.”
And the most primal of those feelings is guilt
over leaving twins Max and Emme. “She can’t stand
being away from her kids,” explains the insider.
“She hates that she can’t be there for them every
moment anymore, and she’s blaming herself for
that. It’s not that the twins don’t love their
dad, but they are both very attached to Jennifer —
especially Emme. She’s a real mommy’s girl.”
Meanwhile, J.Lo has been getting even closer to
24-year-old Casper Smart, which an insider says
“brings even more ups and downs.” And working with
Marc again has brought up a lot of past feelings.
“They have kids,” says the insider. “He’s back to
being charming. It’s all confusing for her. She’s
facing the question of whether they should give it
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Whatever happens, they will always be in each other’s
lives. Even Marc has said, “Marriage was just one chapter...
And kids are another. We’ve got each other for life.”
But the new chapter has J.Lo missing her children. Says
the insider, “She feels like her heart is being ripped out
of her chest every time she has to leave them.”
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