J-Lo wants career and kids
Monday, 8th August 2005, 14:11
LIFE STYLE EXTRA (UK) - Pop diva Jennifer Lopez today admitted she wants it all - career, marriage...and kids.
The three times married girl from the Bronx, who recently wed Latin heart throb Marc Anthony, is better known for her on-off relationships, including high profile affairs with Ben Affleck and P Diddy.
But now the 36 year-old singer and actress, who has her own perfume and clothing lines, says she is looking to 'balance her life' and that could include children.
She says: "I want kids, one day, you know.
"I want peace inside myself, which I'm still struggling with but I'm getting better now. When it comes to balance between my professional life and my personal life, it's a slow learning curve.
"So either you are gong to be a bad mom and be a really good career woman and wife, or a good mom and career woman and a bad wife, or a good mom and a good wife and your career is gonna suck.
"I want to get a T-shirt that says BULLSHIT.
"I think you have to be fulfilled as an individual to be a good mom. I'll figure it out in my own way. And I think if you are trying to have a balance of those three things, I'm sure it is easier when you have a good partner.
"But this is all theoretical and philosophical at this point. But I do hope that I will be able to put it to use one day."
But she fought off criticism that she tried to court attention through her public love affairs and marriages, saying she was "just being herself".
J-Lo split from Affleck just months before tying the knot with Anthony. This followed marriages to waiter Ojani Noa and dancer Cris Judd.
Speaking to British Elle magazine, she said she enjoyed the publicity over her love life.
She said: "It was actually kind of fun. Scary and fun. With intense experiences and things that are hard to go through, you eventually look back and say, 'That was amazing'. There is so much stuff there that is unexplainable, stuff I'll never understand."
Asked if there were some things she would have done differently she went on: "I don't think I did anything wrong. I was just running around, being myself. I was doing what I wanted - just living. But for some reason some people seemed to think I was courting all that attention."
J-Lo, who is soon to star alongside Robert Redford in the movie An Unfinished Life, said there were no hard feelings between her and Affleck who has announced he is to have a child with actress Jennifer Garner.
Asked how she felt at hearing the news of the couple's baby news she said: "You know, I'm a married woman now and I just don't think it's right to keep commenting on past relationships. And, you know, I hope they're happy; you, know, it's a beautiful thing. There are no hard feelings."
Lopez, who once described the chemistry between her and Out of Sight co-star George Clooney as 'One of the best chemestries he or I ever had', said her fame worked against her when it came to getting good movie roles.
Commenting on a run of mediocre films such as Maid in Manhattan and this summer's Monster-in-Law Lopez added: "In the beginning, I was a blank slate. I got to work with all these great directors because I was just a girl who came in and did well in the audition.
"Then when I became famous I was being offered movies that I could star in but that's all I was being offered. When I think I should be seeing the big directors, they don't even consider me. They just see me as a sexy singer and too much in the media."
Lopez, who now has her own production company, is already planning her next celluloid project - an indie film titled Bordertown. But despite her rampant career she insists she is giving serious thought to having a family of her own.
She went on: "I want kids, one day, you know. I want peace inside myself, which I am still struggling with but I'm better now."